hell0z(:

actually i no mood to blog. but i want to blog on how i feel.

i feel very pissedoff&sad. these few days abit of things happen laas. i dont feel like typing.. ):

ytd i'm abit buay song with my parents. i mean.. frankly speaking, i am used to it. but.. i need alot of care at times. and i really feel abit upset alrdy. now.. i try to stop thinking of it, and be more understanding laas. i noe my parenst love us alot.. but.. i need CARE. alot more then what you all are giving. and after you all change work shift, i lose much more of those CARE. and i need you all to trust us more. i noe mayb you all are stress laas, and i wont hate you all de, forvebbers wil live you all de, as parents do care, but.. try to understand us too. (:

**hack care it. just venting my thoughts.

ok. shall combined my thoughts for e past 2 days.
i was unhappy laas. i 100% fail my combined science le. ytd mrs lim was very very nice, she came in and explain things dhat e trainee didnt make it clear de.. &i understand abit le. but.. when she's explaining, i gave abit of e urge to cry. i mean.. i cant take it le. explain now, 1hour later, test le. cant even absorb. and later test my mind is blank..

den later f&n practical. i so gan chiong. so scared laas. in e end, eliza helped miee on e stive, but i off it. LOL, havepn prepare finish. later i ownself on le. prepared such nice food kays. e soup is a little too salty, but e rice was so nice laas. i love it. muchh nicer dne i expected&most li hai thing is i did it myself. and i fry those onions all these myself! and i didnt cook fried rice before.. LOL. and den.. i cook e agar agar was so nice. mango flavour with strawberries&blueberries. crsytal white with red&blue fruits. so very nice&tasty! LOL. i am so pleased with myself.

i thank emerlyn, eliza for helping miee abit.
&sarah loads for helping miee do e washing up. (:

todayy.. i lazy update everything laas.
f&n investigation was alright.. but i am not happy. so siian lor. den ermms.. we got physics test also laas. can do abit only. even pass also no use, chemistry sure fail de. ): just now have a breifing on e china friends coming to stay. so pissed off kays. dhat weiting laas, think she's e boss... change e namelist here&there. den make mr ong so irritated, and he keep scolding emerlyn&us. so @#%&*& up.

dhats all laas.
i am not happy these few days. although i laugh&smile, deep inside, i'm troubled. ad i dont even noe much about what i am troubled about. i just feel frustrated. i laugh when i am happy laas. (:

ok.. i want to thank hy for talking to miee just now laas. (: thanks. i appreciate it&feel muchh happier. (((:
and thank k0rk0r for cheering miee up ytd. and being e shelther.(:

message to my darlings:

cia(:
i'm really happy dhat now you are happier. when i read what you write in your blog, i feel so happy. make dhat happiness last kays. (:
and we will be friends forevbbers&evbbers de. anything, just tell miee kays. i will always be there for you de, no matter what. (((: and i enjoy all e fun&laughters we have together alot. MUAHS! LOVEYOULOADS. <3

lynn(x
haha, from alot of things dhat happen, you make miee realize dhat you are a very strong&determined girl. and you always make miee laugh alot.. haha, and we laughed alot together in class. (: whenever i am angry or what, you will cheer miee up&help miee chu tou. and also.. you will be my hao jiemei forevbbers too. (= and i will continue to ur listening ear too. (: all e fun&laughters too. (x SMUACKS! LOVEYOU LOADS&LOADS! <33

eliza[=
thanks for everything. everytime hear miee grumble about things.. LOL, and i enjoy making fun of you at times. :P LOL, but things are fun between us ya? haha, and i enjoy e library outings we went together. LOL. and all those going outs laas. haha. and cheering one another up. (: yup. and some of e chit chats. (: LOVEYOU! <333

sihui ^_^
haha, e girl i noe for so long. since primary sch days. and we get close only when sec 1 life is coming to an end. haha, how funny lor. noe each other so long& 2 years ago dne we close. haha, i really admire e fact dhat sometimes.. you are so innocent.. and daydream. and can be so relax. (: hahaha. and some of those talks we have together. and i will always remember e talk we had on bus during june.. on e bus to glass menagerie. try and recall if you cant. from there, you make miee understand you better too. (x study hard kays. dont slack le. JIAYOUS! LOVEYOU... <3333

ziqian ^_5
i enjoy e chit chat times we have on e phone. & although we are not really very close in schh.. those phone calls make miee noe you better&we laugh&talk alot too. haha. and we often share e same thoughts about things. (: hahaha. LOVE YOU LOADS! HEARTS!

yiru(=
we can click&understand one another. although we are not close in sch, but thru some of the times, it bought us closer. you are also a very determined girl and treat friends very nice de. haha, i hope to make this friendship stronger&dhat i will be ur listening ear whenver you need miee kays. and i cant 100%say dhat i will solve it, but i can listen. and at least.. mayb you can feel better. and i cant give very good advice, but let miee hear you scream when you have problems kays. dont keep things to urself. and be happy always hor. ((: and i really hope to make this friendship stronger. ((= LOVEYOU LOADS&LOADS. SMUAHS! <3333

yvonne xD
haha, we can talk whenver we like de. haha. sleep in e same house, go sch together, sit together, talk together, quarrel together, sing together, play together&everything together? haha, i think we are very close laas. thou mayb you wont admit. :P and dhat day before slping, when you tell miee how you feel about certain things, i feel very upset with myself. but at least now, i noe how you feel abt things. ((: next time also tell miee kays. but.. with good attitude. LOL. yup yup. ((: LOVEYOUFOREVBBERS!

ibelieve dhat everyone of us can be friends&hao jiemei together forevbbers de.(:

to korkor:
thanks for encouraging miee to study hard&listening to my da xiao jie pi qi. and sometimes, only you understands how i feel, or at least.. you try to. and you always manage to make miee feel better. and i am happy dhat you are my k0rk0r. at least.. from strangers to friends to good friend which i can tell my problems to and now.. my k0rk0r. LOL, dont change back to friends kays. at least.. being my brother seems nice? hahaha. and thanks for everything. i want to be e mei dhat can share ur probs too kays. (((: like at least.. know when you are unhappy&happy. hahah. and i understand what you say abt how my parents do care. (: haha, k0r&mei forvebbers kays. <3 l0l, at least, i'm a nice sister too right? =P

yup yup. all these is to my darling friends and k0r laas.
at least.. they are e one who love, care for miee and e ones i turned to when i have problems. and with them, i feel xing fu. (: and i feel happy too. haha, i am very lucky to have 8 super close darlings&they are what dhat matter most other than my family. (:
i will love you all forevbbers de. HUGGS&KISSES!

e trip to old folks home.. we will sing 2 nice nice songs. LOL, hope i dont get sore throat on dhat day. CHOI. and e china friends all coming le. YAY! (((: hope everything will turn out fine. (:

dhats all laas. I THINK I, YI GE XIANG XIA TIAN YI GE XIANG CHIU TIAN.
(((:

stupid lao gao, dont do anything for groupwork de. pffft